Being In Tune

Sometimes I forget that I am deeply affected by other peoples energy, whether it is good or bad. For the most part, I am in tune with my body and can feel my heart beat faster or slower depending on the circumstance. My body is a barometer to the outside world. My hands turn cold when I’m nervous. I become shaky. My stomach tightens. Even my cheeks turn red when I feel threatened.
When I am happy I feel lighter and warm. A smile comes easier. It’s as if all functions level out.
It is good to pay attention to these reactions so as to not forget that we are all truly connected and that each kind word, each kind gesture, matters. At the core, all humans want the same things: health, happiness, and safety. If we all just focused on what we have, instead of what we don’t, then we’d be healthier and happier.

Wishing for peace around the world, and internally. IMG_1763.JPG

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goodbye summer 2015

Last night we waved goodbye to our summer sun. Our little family was at Lake Salem in Derby, VT. 

Earlier we had made an offering to the lake gods, which included clam shells, tiny daisies, itty bity snails, and pink and green flowers. We swam and splashed around and ate a delicious meal cooked on the grill. 

The air started to have a slight chill to it; and as the children ran around giggling, soaking up the quick seconds of gold remaining, the sun set and the warmth left us and the sky turned gray and the water a darker blue.

And then, we said hello to Autumn and a beautiful evening.

“The world is round and the place which may seem like the end, may also be the beginning.” – Ivy Baker Priest 



momma’s birthday

today (July 2nd) was my birthday!

it was nothing special, and everything special. 

my children were running circles around me. bickering. loving. giggling. all the good stuff. 

had breakfast with my mom, Cream of Wheat was what I requested; an odd favorite. coffee was delicious. 

ice cream for the kids at lunch. 

surprise massage (gifted to me by my husband) in the afternoon!

spontaneous dinner with friends in the evening. 


all simple yet amazing. 

I just want to remember. ✨💚🎈



summer memories 

ah, bliss. 

      summer is really shaping up to be quite extraordinary, so far! 

we seem to be super busy, nearly everyday. I’m not one to care for busy days, particularly…but I’m trying to just roll with it. 

swimming, exploring, piano lessons, birthday parties, bridal showers, barbecues, long car rides to cool places, sleeping in, hot nights, gardening: SUMMER!

my nephew, Forrest, was here (with my brother and his momma) over Father’s Day weekend. that was such a joy. he is edible. and it’s always good to reconnect with my brother and Mary. it feels like a restart. 

we built a dam in my parents brook, which is something my family always does together. a chance to talk, cool off, build something neat; and all the while know that the dam will be destroyed with the next storm. impermanence and beauty right before our eyes. 

  Matt ended up getting free Red Sox tickets from his boss. we were NOT going to take the kids, but we couldn’t find a babysitter…so we just said, “let’s do it!” the best decision ever. the kids were SO happy and we were able to see Boston thru their eyes. happy little eyes. the seats were basically ON the field, third base line, by the Orioles dugout. so very blessed. 
      it was 90 degrees and like 100% humidity and there was a tornado warning in effect! but nothing happened (because we brought an umbrella) ! 😊

and because we were living it up and having so much fun, we let the kids go crazy at the end of the night in a pressurized water park. it was magical. ✨

anyway, just a few pieces of our life to record here.  

until the next adventure-thanks for reading. X


made from the stars

he asked me why you had to die, and all i knew what to say was this:
we each have magic inside us, and that we are made from wishes upon stars, and, in fact, from stars. and when we die, that very magic gets sent back out into the universe…and with any luck, we may feel his magic once again.
i’m not sure this answer helped our 6 year old son. he’s frustrated at the sentiment, ‘death is a part of life’, and to be honest, so am i. this loss feels hard and cold and unfair. the day he died it was one of the coldest of this winter, and that seems fitting.

we will genuinely miss you, John. you loved us (and we felt it), you loved the smell of babies, and cried when you first saw our daughter. a stay-at-home-dad, you loved the Red Sox, the woods in the forest, the Grateful Dead, and not having to pretend.
the last time you cooked for us it was steak and tuna because you knew the kids would eat it. always aware, always kind. when we’d visit, you’d always greet us at our car and always walked us back to it when we left.
you were a bit sarcastic, you loved reading, kept a good fire going, and you could tell a great story.
this past summer you completed building a craft room for your wife that was just gorgeous. and to top it off, you found a heart shaped stump in the woods, brought it home, polished it, and set it on her new felting table. looking back, it’s almost like you knew. that she’d need this place. this room to reflect, to cry, to love, to scream.

finally, when i went to visit you in the hospital and you were lying there, yellow with jaundice and older looking, yet curled like a baby, we talked. i wasn’t sure i should be there, (i’d never seen a cancer patient in that kind of shape) but you told me you wanted me to stay. looking back, i was so confident and ‘peppy’. as i quietly watched the reiki performed on your swollen feet, you closed your eyes and told me you couldn’t wait to swim in the cool water with your newly shaven head, but some things aren’t meant to be…
you leave behind two gorgeous, independent and confident boys: ten and thirteen, and your magical wife.
we will carry you in our hearts. always.